I will not know

her hair was belligerently touching the beat in his chest. Silence was comfortable, yet he spoke:
- there will be tough times in our relationship...as in any other normal relationship. It is very likely that we will have moments when sparkle will seem to dim away and it is for us to revive our connection. There will be times when I will need you to be the main driver...I will need you to add spiciness, fantasy and warmth to our togetherness. But I will not tell you.
- why not? she whispered
- probably I will not know it myself...